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Learning to clean blood out of silk through no power of my own...

These truly are journeys in a strange life.

18 January
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"Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool. If you are willing and obedient, you will eat the best from the land; but if you resist and rebel,you will be devoured by the sword." For the mouth of the LORD has spoken."--Isaiah 1: 18-20

I am on a journey of self-discovery. Part of that journey, for me, meant starting over. Locking up my old journal and beginning a new one (among other things). My old journal was very... exhibitionist. Very attention-seeking. That isn't what I need.

"See how the faithful city has become a harlot..." (Isaiah 1:21 a)

Here is what you need to know: I am planning to have most of my entries be friends-only. It isn't that I don't want to share. It's that I have a tendency to over-share. To rely too much on other people. It isn't healthy. This journal is for me and for God and for those who really want to share in the journey of a recovering sex addict and struggling Christian. Because that is precisely who and what I am. There will be times when I disable comments. My prayer is that there will not be times when I censor myself because of my audience.
Some days I will write utter rubbish that is self-centered and just... crap. It will make you angry. It will make me angry. I will kick against walls and boundaries that exist for good reasons--to protect me, to shelter me, to help me grow--but I will behave like a petulant child and kick against them anyway. Some days I will babble nonsense. Some days I will post several times. Others not at all.

The only promise I am willing to make is honesty. If you can handle that, then drop me a line.
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